Questions, questions

This morning I was thinking about the power of the human brain and how it helps us to cope with several stressing situations at the same time without completely collapsing. My impression is we have a system of "let go " embedded in our brain. We don't forget but we stop concentrating on something. If we refuse the let go process, then I guess it makes us either sick or close to lose our mind.

I suppose it's part of our survival instinct to have a way to cut off when we are close to collapsing. I was speaking with a good friend yesterday and telling her that when it becomes too much for me, there is a kind of short-circuit happening in me that stops everything. It forces me to sit and stop and not care for everything for a while. After that, I am much more able to rationalize things and look at them differently.

Of course all this is related to my Dad. He saw the cardiologist yesterday who said he was very pleased with him, no extra-systoles anymore, so he told him to go and have a normal life and if his heart bits were to go down too much then he would get a pacemaker. Of course he is old, of course there are risks of things going wrong, but that's part of life. Both Dad and Mum were happy with that and of course I was too.

He could have a fatal problem tomorrow morning or he could live for the next 10 years or more. So how do I deal with that ? Where is the right place to stay between being scared every second and believing in an immortality that doesn't exist? I don't have the answer of course, that's why I was thinking about this letting-go process this morning : Keeping in mind there is a problem but not letting it completely spoil every minute of my day.  It makes full sense to me but it's not because it's the right thing to do that it means it's easy to do it . . .

Let's go to the weather. Look at this :

and this ( notice Bubbles arriving full power from the left, lol ):

It is such a beautiful weather. We even had to remove our jumpers and walk in T-shirt as it was becoming too hot.

Both girls had a good walk, there was the usual saturday morning cross country race, but we managed to go around them.

It's the second night I go to bed very early. It's another thing that amazes me in the human body. As long as there is a problem, I will hold on and do what is needed, but when it finishes, it's like melting down and feeling so exhausted.



Project 365+1 - Day 273 : Stripes

I took 2 pictures for today's word. The 1st one is in the park, I thought the different trees were showing stripes of colors, a bit pushy . . .

 
As of the 2nd picture, Asda has come up with a lovely range of stationary with stripes and I treated myself to one a couple of weeks ago. That gives you an occasion to look at my messy desk and uncleaned mirrors . . .  I can't be everywhere, right ?

LSNED 2012 : Catch up planned during the week-end .


Take care everybody, xxx