What an unnecessary mess . . .

Yesterday afternoon, my Mum called to say that my Dad's operation was confirmed for Thursday morning. It was 4pm, the plane was at 8:30pm, even if I could have got tickets, there was no way I could make it and I was pretty upset about it.

Additionally to the weather, another big thing I hate about England is the fact its' an island. No wonder Alcatraz was on an Island. Southampton Marseille is not really far away but to get out of here, you need either a plane, or a boat or a ticket to go into the tunnel. When I lived in Munich it was much farer away but within half an hour I was in my car and driving.

So yes I was very upset but when something is decided for you and there isn't the slightest thing you can do about it, there's no reason to stay upset for ever, so I just accepted ( but not necessarily calmed down ! ).

I talked to my dad last night and again early this morning and he was in good spirit. He said they got him all ready and he was waiting for them to come and get him. Mum's plan was to arrive at the hospital very early and wait in the corridor so she might catch a glance of Dad when he goes to the Theater ( as visits are only allowed from 1pm and they are very strict on that ).

I felt so sorry I couldn't be there and wait with her. But in fact, when I called her on her cell phone at 9 this morning, she told me one nurse saw her waiting outside and invited her into my Dad's room so she can stay with him and she was actually with him right now. They were both really pleased and that uplifted my mood a bit as if I had been there, the nurses definitely wouldn't have done that, so a small positive thing to hang on to.

There wasn't a precise schedule for the op or if there was they didn't tell my Dad so now I am just waiting for my Mum to call : The awful part.

I know I won't publish this post until I have news, but somehow it does me so good to write.

Last night my good friend called to chat a bit and she told me it would be nice to relax a bit and may be get a little treat. I had her laughing to tears when I explained I had that covered. A lot of people will eat chocolate or biscuits, well last night I decided to cook a full pan of Brussels Sprouts. I love that stuff with ham and cheese. So that's what I ate. It was delicious and it did cheer me up.

I said earlier that I put my big birthday camera for sale, well I sold it to a lovely lady on UKS and spending only a third of the money I bought the model above my current compact one, with a much better zoom. It arrived yesterday and it was a nice little treat too. It also has a kind of wide angle so these are 2 pictures with the 2 cameras from the same spot as usual.

Yesterday with my old camera

Today with  my new camera

So I will have to get used to it a bit more, but I am really pleased with it.

I had a walk with the girls but it was extremely cold ( it's 16 degres inside the house right now ) and I had difficulties to concentrate.

For those who do LSED, it will be old news, but Shimelle pointed us to a video this morning ( that has nothing to do with Crafts). You can search for Nic Marks: happy planet index on YouTube or click here . I watched it this morning and found it extremely inspiring and settling, a kind of " back to the source " thing.

I've been working in order to keep myself distracted but there is a watch on the computer and I started wondering how much longer it would take when I just got a call from Mum. It almost 12:30 and they still didn't come to get Dad. Thanks God she called as I was really wondering what is happening. Depending what time they take him, I now could only have news later afternoon, as I read the procedure takes between 2 and 5 hours.

I talked to Dad again, he is OK but I definitely know for sure from which parent my extreme lack of patience comes from !

We now agreed that Mum will call me when they take him, so I know a bit better what to expect.

13:20: My mum called to say that the department doctor just told them that the procedure had been cancelled. My Dad will be released from hospital this afternoon and sent back home with some meds.

I think I am going to lose my mind soon.

Mum is trying to see how to put her hands on the Doctor who was supposed to do the procedure in order to talk to him and call me back. After that, I will try to call on my side to get some explanations too. What on earth is going on ??????

14:30: After trying to locate the cardiologist for ages, we finally heard he was operating and would pass by later. Mum and I decided that Dad stays in hospital until we know what's going on.

16:00: The cardiologist just visited my Dad. There is no real explanation of why the procedure was cancelled on such short notice ( I couldn't talk to him so I only heard from my mum ), but he said it would be worthwhile to try some new meds, just in case the operation could be avoided.

That makes perfect sense to me, what doesn't is why didn't this genious idea come to his head yesterday ? Why did they "prepare" my dad for the op at 7 this morning and let him wait for almost 7 hours ????  AARRGGHH !!!!!

His plan is to give Dad some new meds to try under hospital control until Monday. If they work, Dad will come home. If not, we go back down the road to the pacemaker.

Dennis described this as a roller coaster situation, yeah, kind of. I am sick on roller coasters anyway.

So somehow it's even good I couldn't fly down because I wouldn't be helpful now. I obviously can't spend several weeks down there so may be we can plan it that I am there when I am really needed as there is still the pacemaker road that's possible.

I don't need to tell you I am mentally exhausted and I surely will catch an early night. I am sure my parents will too. Dad is OK, he just doesn't exactly understand what's going on, but none of us does.

Thank you so much for all the kind messages I received, I didn't answer everybody yet, but I promise I will.




Project 365+1 - Day 264 : Backlit

That's probably the most awful picture I took in all my life, but I didn't want to fall back as I want to keep on track with this daily project, so here is my picture : My trimmer by the window.

LSNED will have to wait.

Take care everybody, xxx