Sunny day

Last night I was reading comments on my post and Lynne was saying " I am such a non routine person. . .  ". That's the funny thing, because I am not either, I hated routine all my life as it is so boring.
Unfortunately since that fall a year ago, a lot of things changed and I haven't managed to repair them all, although trying really hard as it's very difficult to live with someone inside yourself who isn't exactly you.

After the fall, I had these series of panic attacks, anger burst, flowing emotions, I was a mess and if you remember it took 4 months of PTSD therapy to bring me back on my feet. Things are 95% back the way they were before, but there is something that's not back ( and I want to hopefully say NOT YET ), it's coping this stress.

I have never been the type who can relax as long as there are still things to do on the list, so I do them and then I stop. Problem is the list is very long some days and days only have 24 hours ( as far as I know ).

I always cope coped with anything and now if I don't have a routine to rely on, it's very difficult. It's like the routine itself would have become my life buoy and I do hate that routine, but I need it. Although I start thinking I believe I need it but I don't. Problem is life goes on and you can't just press pause and take all the time in the world to sort things out. So I try to sort things out in parallel of thousands of other things and It takes really long.

This morning I should have gone out with the dogs at 9, but I had a coffee on the sofa with Dennis and we started chatting and when I wanted to go Sophie came, then David and before long we were all chatting about vanity in men and women.

Then I surely should have gone out with the girls but I decided to have breakfast with them what I normally never do on a Sunday. I did have a nice time. I then took Bubbles out, though it was already a bit too hot.

The patch of grass in the front is getting more and more yellow. Autumn is surely on its way. It's even more obvious on this photo here :

This always reminds me of South of France, in summer, by the sea.

Project 365+1 - Day 253 : Feet

Dennis and Rhea. The angle of photo is a bit weird, but having Rhea not moving for 2 seconds isn't a piece of cake, so that will have to do for today.

LSNED 2012 :

Already in catch up mode, lol.

Day 7 : In between time

In between time is my specialty. I go upstairs to get my coffee cup and I come back downstairs half an hour later having done something completely different, most of the time useful, but without my coffee cup.

I go upstairs again to get my coffee cup and I come back downstairs half an hour later having done something completely different, most of the time useful, but without my coffee cup.

So I go upstairs to get . . .

I think it's very much related to the topic in day 8 as I do too many things at the same time and I really get out of focus.



Day 8 : New Skill Saturday

I have some good qualities ( yes, I really do ) but a lot of them turn out to be my worse enemies.

I am very hard working and it turns out I don't know how to relax.

I always push myself but I am my worst critic.

I'm not a quitter so I often work until I can't stand anymore.

The past days have been a living example of that and I really need to do something about it.

Take care everybody, xxx